At night I wonder why I still who I am. Like look at the media and how it shows how us women are 'supposed' to look. Its very depressing to me to think, 'oh look at that girl with thay beautiful body. My body must be shit and I must look ugly compared to her.' It fucking hurts to see the media use skinny people in adds. They should use a VARIETY of different people, not just size but in race as well.

Anywho I had to say that because ive been crying a bit about it cause im very self conscious about my body...... I dont know why I told you guys that......

My dream

I have this dream... Well its kind of like an impossible yet possible goal. I want to become famous, like a singer. But I don't know if I actually have the talent to sing. And no one has truely heard me sing as if I was home alone. And if I ever do achieve this dream I am absolutly going to pay of my house bills for my parents. :) The people who help me are my friends and family, but I want like... A stranger or a celeberity to complement my abaility.

In the end to sum up my dream, I just want to succeed to the fullest of my ability. As well as help pay to support my family.

That is my dream :)

Awkward

Well I went to my friends party and I'm like a loner. Well not really, its just that im on one chair and the others all all together on the couch. They arent even talking to me, which makes me sad. *pouts* but I guess that's good I think. Oh well I guess I need to socialize more.