I am sooooo stressed out it is not even funny. One, I have school. Meaning waking up early in the morning. Then I have school work, which takes quite a while causing me to sleep a bit later than usual. (cutting my sleeping time) and then there's fricken Cadets. It takes up my weekends where I still cannot sleep in. I NEED more than one hour to sleep in if I need a good night of rest.
Its just pissing me off, anyways, yeah, peace out people.
I love this weather. The weather where I can wear comfy sweaters and scarves. Step onto the crisp leaves, hearing them crunch underneath my feet. Trees changing from their usual healthy green to the bright orange, yellow and red.
My only dislike to the weather is that its to cuddle with someone. And if you anything like me right now, you'd be single. Meaning you've got no one to cuddle with.
But anyways I just adore this season and definitly cannot wait for winter.
:)
From the day I have first met my friend, I knew we were going to be close. We became close friends and soon enough we were in a relationship. But it only lasted a month. Since the breakup everything has been awkward between us. As if he's avoiding us on purpose! It makes me mad and sad the fact that he ignores me. Just the other day we finally sent eachother a nice smile. But it didnt look like it reached his eyes, it was sad to see. But now I envy people who have a long and still growing relationship. To have someone there to hold you and tell you everything is going to be find. To be who you are and not be critisized by the one you love. I wish to soon be in a relationship like that.
Now I shall go and eat something cause im bloody hungry.
At night I wonder why I still who I am. Like look at the media and how it shows how us women are 'supposed' to look. Its very depressing to me to think, 'oh look at that girl with thay beautiful body. My body must be shit and I must look ugly compared to her.' It fucking hurts to see the media use skinny people in adds. They should use a VARIETY of different people, not just size but in race as well.
Anywho I had to say that because ive been crying a bit about it cause im very self conscious about my body...... I dont know why I told you guys that......
I have this dream... Well its kind of like an impossible yet possible goal. I want to become famous, like a singer. But I don't know if I actually have the talent to sing. And no one has truely heard me sing as if I was home alone. And if I ever do achieve this dream I am absolutly going to pay of my house bills for my parents. :) The people who help me are my friends and family, but I want like... A stranger or a celeberity to complement my abaility.
In the end to sum up my dream, I just want to succeed to the fullest of my ability. As well as help pay to support my family.
That is my dream :)
Well I went to my friends party and I'm like a loner. Well not really, its just that im on one chair and the others all all together on the couch. They arent even talking to me, which makes me sad. *pouts* but I guess that's good I think. Oh well I guess I need to socialize more.
Im choking, as if I was drowning. Nothing and no one could save me. The darkness swallowing me whole, until... There was a voice, an angelic heavenly voice singing. I began to see a small but strong light beginning to shine in the distance. I struggled to get my body to stand and began to walk/stumble towards it. I got closer towards it till I heard a blood curdling scream.
I bolted upright in my bed screaming, a cold sweat plastering my dark brown hair to my face. I was panting heavily.
This is the beginning to one of my stories, probably a fan fiction. Do you guys & girls like it? Tell me please. :)
In about... 10 hours I'm going to be leaving home to go camping. I have not been camping for at least 2 years. Im really excited to go back with the family the only thing is that I don't like to swim in Lake Ontario that much anymore. Im a good swimmer, I just prefer swimming pools more than the natural bodies of water. Anyways once I'm gone, I'm going to try and go for a few jogs/runs. In the end I am just glad that I get to go camping again.
Well, till next time (probably Friday) later ya'll! :)
I always have these feelings right before I sleep. Feelings that I will never find the right person to love me for who I am. Even as I listen to upbeat music my eyes start to tear up and I cry. I think, I'm an ugly bitch and a horrible person. I'm fat, overweight, unhealthy and a very unpretty girl. It just kills me because I think, I was never good enough for my first boyfriend. What's the point on having another? No one will love me for who I am other than my family. I will always be an outcast because of my randomness and weirdness. I will be forever alone, and I will stay alone in the corner of my room forever thinking this.
I always think this every single night.
Well... Goodnight everyone.
I'm so happy, so very happy that my brother is back home. He left for 6 weeks of the summer and spent it in England. I honestly missed him so much, even though he bugs me a lot. Im glad he's home, he told many stories that happened while he was there. All were funny, but I just really missed my brother. We're like bestfriends, i've bonded with him a lot the past school year. Again I must say that I miss him. I love that I have a brother like him who looks after me, and who I can go up to if I have a problem. Though usually replies to me with a sarcastic answer at first. But in the end I missed my big brother/bestfriend a lot while he was gone.
I love my brother :')
Till next time, bye guys/girls! :)
I feel like after all those years of being a tomboy and playing a lot of sports that im now becoming a bit... Different, hate to say it but I think im changing... In a good way though, im just touching up on my feminine side (Not that im girl already). But I mean beginning to watch The Bachelor and The Bachelorette. Just to see why other girls are so interested into it. Though I still love to watch sports and play video games.
Im glad that im changing (The good change). Well bye bye for now! :)
To be honest, I am becoming obsessed with Barbie movies :$ its a tad embaressing. But I have to admit I do miss Barbie... It could be because when I was little I would just cut off my barbie's hair and throw them away. So I guess you could say that watching these movies is to like... Relive my childhood the girly way.
Well... That's all that was on my mind for now. Goodbye everyone. Till next time, Dream on! :)
For the past... Half a year, my brain has been going through lots of thoughts. One I finally got my first kiss.... And second being the fact that I like two people, both go to school. One has been in my classes, the other has gone to an afterschool program I go to. For a while I held back trying not to do anything. Then I thought, 'if I dont deserve them then I should just forget about them.' So I tried to for a bit and ended up getting closer to one of them. As soon as I realized it I backed off making... A lot of distance. Then I began to show my feelings to the other guy. And I confessed like months beforehand, I guess he just forgot. Before I knew it mostly everyone in the afterschool program knew about my crush on him. As the weeks went by I grew more to like him, one weekend the program had a trip and we all stayed in a hotel. Not knowing what was going to happen and before thinking, I went over to his room and we talked for what seemed like minutes but was actually an hour. A few things happened that night (2:30-4:30am) ... Or morning if you want to call it, though I dont feel like talking about that. Lets just say we had an interesting conversation. A few days after that and after some of our many conversations over the phone we began to date for about a month. The spark was there for a bit, but we both could feel that the spark was dieing down. So he was the one to break it to me. And now? I dont know what to do, its only been a month since then.
Well... I still like the other guy but im sure he'll never know. But hey, im just glad I was able to type this out. It makes me feel better. :) Now goodnight to everyone reading this blog of mine.
Well, I realized that my first blog made no sence what so ever. Though usually I never make sence to people. Anyways getting back to the topic about me, well.. Lets just say im a person who loves food, sports, books, and social networks. Im random, crazy, shy, loud, weird, and calm. I concider myself a leader not a follower (Though you follow people on twitter). And with that I leave you people who are reading my blog/s a small idea of who I am. Have a wonderful... Life!
