Feels...

For the past... Half a year, my brain has been going through lots of thoughts. One I finally got my first kiss.... And second being the fact that I like two people, both go to school. One has been in my classes, the other has gone to an afterschool program I go to. For a while I held back trying not to do anything. Then I thought, 'if I dont deserve them then I should just forget about them.' So I tried to for a bit and ended up getting closer to one of them. As soon as I realized it I backed off making... A lot of distance. Then I began to show my feelings to the other guy. And I confessed like months beforehand, I guess he just forgot. Before I knew it mostly everyone in the afterschool program knew about my crush on him. As the weeks went by I grew more to like him, one weekend the program had a trip and we all stayed in a hotel. Not knowing what was going to happen and before thinking, I went over to his room and we talked for what seemed like minutes but was actually an hour. A few things happened that night (2:30-4:30am) ... Or morning if you want to call it, though I dont feel like talking about that. Lets just say we had an interesting conversation. A few days after that and after some of our many conversations over the phone we began to date for about a month. The spark was there for a bit, but we both could feel that the spark was dieing down. So he was the one to break it to me. And now? I dont know what to do, its only been a month since then.
Well... I still like the other guy but im sure he'll never know. But hey, im just glad I was able to type this out. It makes me feel better. :) Now goodnight to everyone reading this blog of mine.